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The horizon is always there
We will never see
Around the corner
Into the mind
Explore the heart
In any tangible way

If the things in my heart were written plainly across my chest I wouldn’t go anywhere
I drove for hours and I couldn’t escape you
I came home to your arms but they were distant

I can’t stand the thought of eternity
Half my life is enveloped in falsity
Outrunning the fear, paralyzed by night

Maybe tomorrow I’ll see you and it won’t hurt
Maybe I can watch her touch your shoulder and I’ll feel happiness for you
Maybe in a week I won’t want her to be everything you don’t want her to be

But today, plainly I want to be several people at once.

It’s not you and it never was
Regrets forming on the tip of my tongue
Slipping away back into the shadows
Catching my coat at the corners when the wind blows

You’re as far away as the mountain peaks
But I can see you so clearly after a rain
Stormy mind cloudy heart but still every time you bring color to my cheeks

It’s still there in the way you move
The reason why I fell in love with you

My mouth tastes like metal
I think I saw it in your eyes too
The nausea
Do you wish I had insisted?
Because I wish you would have kissed me
At least one last time to let me know
That I’m just a character in your own dramatic show
Screaming now at the stage ahead
Take back all the words you’ve said

Come by sometime when the pretty isn’t enough
For a real warmth I’ll remind you that a real love is never over

You blame me for my depth
I blame you for your shallow reasons
My tides have tendencies and yours are managed by the afternoon breeze

A handful of almosts
Too late too sorry too much indecision
The door is closed now don’t come back to me
In late July I felt the warm air touch my heart
In places I had forgotten about
It’s February now and the cold has gone on for too long
Here we are staring at our shoes we put on for the rain
The salt from the air obstructs our ability to say all the things we should have in October
Instead we pressed our bodies close and wished for things to be different
With hysteria I laugh at the end of beginnings
Holding onto another December when I felt safe
I’m almost strong enough
And it was almost soon enough
I’m almost about to lose my sun

The key to my undoing
Is locked in your eyes when you look to the side
Carrying the brink of the world on your eyelashes
Your fingertips I can’t stop staring
It’s making my brain unravel
I was happier before I heard you call my name
1:30 under the neon lights last call for drinks
I don’t know where I am in my own universe
Lost between the sun and some other galaxy